The biggest connection we can have with God is surely through prayer. Yet, I have always found praying extremely difficult. either I am repeating a text in the hope of God hearing it but not sure what it is supposed to accomplish or I have tried to talk to God but because my attention span is limited, my thoughts tend to wander and I end up thinking about taking the garbage out. Not exactly something I need to bother God with, really. And anyway, isn’t it pretty annoying for God to have people constantly asking for stuff? How can he listen to all of them? And some of the prayers at least must contradict the prayer of another person (my housemate suggested jokingly to pray for Wales winning against France in the Rugby World Cup for example) so why even bother? What can I ask of God and how do I build a relationship with him, how can I connect? And let’s not forget, I am just a measly little human, how can I even think of changing God’s mind? And is asking God for things what it’s all about and isn’t there something deeper?
For me, praying isn’t so much about getting specific things. For me praying is much more of a conversation or a connection to God that helps me by giving the strength and resolve I need to get through all the difficulties in life. At the same time, sharing the good things makes them so much more of a joy. Telling God about everything I did wrong helps me to get over it and forgive myself, to find a way to get it right the next time. This doesn’t work every time of course. A lot of days prayer seems to just vanish into thin air and leaves me wondering whether I was just talking to myself thins time. Nonetheless, it is a ritual I cherish and sometimes there is this extra spark that makes the day brighten suddenly. They tend to happen when I need them most.